Recently, I’ve been in search of a way to create content without running into the limitations of my perfectionism. This is an ongoing thing, so there might be a few hiccups along the way but luckily, this is a patient community. 🙂
I love creating videos. And blogs. And images and what not. I’ve loved it since the day I first touched a computer in the local library. But the need to control every aspect of everything, doesn’t limit itself to the things that are hard or no fun. And lately, I’ve felt its grasp tighten, especially around the things I love.
It took me while to see the difference – but also the very thin line – between having attention to detail, and obsessively controlling things that make very little difference. The latter tends to get out of control (ha such pun intended). You need more and more things, that need to be a certain way in order to be ‘right’. And at some point I was so tired, I just stopped doing things all together.
Of course you know me by now (and perhaps this shit is getting a little old), and this deflation is only temporary. I had people around me – including my 13-year old son – who carefully suggested a looser approach to content creation. “People like that kind of stuff, mum”, he said. Well, ok kid let me gobble up an extra dose of CBD and see if I can make something out of it.
I recorded a session, as I would normally work in my studio. Well, almost normally. It’s never the same with a bunch of cameras around you. But the idea is to film some stuff without a plan, and especially without too much editing, planning and directing. I hope you enjoy a bit of insight, and I hope to share some more about my daily process of learning and working. I’ve posted two sessions so far on Youtube and the response from my art friends was so supportive, that I feel strengthened in my desire to overcome this. So thank you for that. <3
Here are the sessions so far, you can also follow my Youtube channel if you like.